O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you.
I remember when I first started to be able to say, “my God.”
I’ve always been able to say with some confidence and certainty, “He is God.” But there is a major shift within a person and a sweetness that comes from being able to declare in the deepest parts of your being, “my God.”
If you know what I’m talking about, then maybe you also want to simultaneously weep your eyes while dancing for joy. I’m so overwhelmed and thankful that God is no longer just “the God” but that He is now, “my God.” Knowing God as “the God” may have some value, but knowing God as “my God” is a treasure. If you read the rest of Psalm 63, you will see that David feels the same way.
So, where and when does this shift occur? When do you transition from just believing “in God,” to knowing and owning Him as “my God?”
Well, I can tell you my story and how it echoes and resonates with David’s story and declaration here in Psalm 63.
God became “my God” when I needed and wanted Him to be “my God.”
Let me clarify. I’ve always needed God to be God. My every breath and heartbeat demands the need for God in my life simply because I can’t sustain myself. But as foolish as it is, those things don’t usually help me realized my neediness from day to day. Those needs, on their own, have never lead me to wanting God.
God became “my God” when I had nothing left.
God became “my God” when I could no longer rely on the faith of others around. I’ve seen many turn cynical when things like this occur, and believe me I was tempted. But thankfully instead of cynicism becoming my god and instead of forming a faith that was reactionary to the hurt, pain and loss of those I’ve trusted…God had grace and mercy on me and became “my God” instead.
God became “my God” when I needed a shield.
God became “my God” when I needed a deliverer.
God became “my God” when I needed a shepherd and guide.
God became “my God” when I needed clarity and understanding.
God became “my God” when I needed a refuge and a place to hide from the storm.
God became “my God” when I was thirsty in my soul.
God became “my God” during a season when I need Him to be “my God.” He graciously let me walk through relatively difficult season of my life and in the midst of that difficult season I realized that I had all these unmet needs. I knew God was God and I knew that He supposedly supplied these needs for other people…but He became “my God ” when I got to taste and experience for myself the riches of knowing Him.
God became my Father, my Shield, my Deliverer, my Helper, my Shepherd, my Counselor, my Refuge, my Water, my Breath, my Hope, my Savior. He was no longer just those things in theory, He literally became those things for me. My God.
I know that He is my God and I can have confidence in that because I have relational experience with Him that I can point back to. Though we all go in and out of seasons, I can continually point to relational experiences with God because I now trust Him more which means I trust Him to be “my God.” I trust Him to be what I need and so I’m getting better at leaving Him room to be “my God.” I’m getting better at not running to other things.
Those of you who understand know that I’m not patting myself on the back when I tell you this. God isn’t “my God” because I did something awesome. God is “my God” because He graciously let me feel my deep need for Him which led to a deep want for Him to be who He says He is.
From what I gather in the Word, God became “my God” to David in similar seasons. In the season of being the lonely shepherd boy and “runt of the litter,” God became “my God” to David. When facing the giant or running from Saul, God became “my God” to David. These seasons prepared David for the “good seasons.” In the hard seasons God becomes, “my God” and it’s a gracious thing because it will help us in the seasons where we are more tempted to make other things our god.
It’s here, in Psalm 63, in another hard season, that David says, “my God.”
David has experienced all the pleasures of being a king. Riches, women, glory, power, children…but those things never sustain in the hard seasons. What sustains him? “My God”
Because God is “my God” to David, he is not only sustained in the wilderness, David is FILLED. David doesn’t just have enough, David has everything. Go read the psalm. Though He is in the middle of losing everything, David considers himself rich because God is “my God.”
My encouragement with this blog is for you to do two thing:
1.) Consider whether or not you can truly say “my God.” Not “their God” or just “the God,” but “my God.”
2.) Don’t despise the hard seasons. Know that they can become some of the most enriching seasons of your life. It is often in those seasons that God becomes “my God.”